Saturday, December 31, 2011

Waiting

I used to walk by you side,
when you were so lonely,
I used to hold tight your hand,
when it was so scary

What happened between us,
that now your so scared,
what changed in us,
that you dont care

I miss your smile,
I miss you breath,
I miss your lies,
I miss your jokes

Times have gone by,
you haven't shown up,
I keep waiting,
you keep fading


Tour in College Life

                 Everyone likes going no tours with friends and family. It's always the best time we spend with them. Every college and school takes the students on a tour atleast once every year. During school life there was a time when every class had a tour but when it was our turn , they changed the setup to tours only on odd years like 5th,7th,9th and 11th standards. Still it was fun, the best being the last tour we went. But in my college things were much worse. Our seniors had pretty amazing excursions to different places, but when it came to us, it so became that tour kind of got banned. Like what the hell?? No tour in four years of college life?? It was such a disappointment, we had a strike and got suspended for it aswell. Then there was a parent-teacher meeting where the cunning management spoke like its too dangerous and risky and stuff like that. Some parents fell for it while some others were on our side. Are they forgetting that they too had gone on excursions during their college life?? And they want us to sacrifice it on what grounds?? Nothing is ever going to be perfect, mistakes need to be made and then corrected than not to take the action at all , its like cutting off a tree cause it will shed its leaves on your porch.

       Three years passed, no tour at all for us , everyone was always against us. It so happened that we got a break this year, in our seventh semester, a week long holiday due to the Pooja holidays. The college was never going to allow us an excursion so the students planned it out. We asked all the teachers if anyone of them could accompany us but none was willing to, and the only one who could come, couldn't come cause of fixture issues. People started backing out from the tour. I was determined to go anyway, whether the number of people was 10 to 40. Then we managed to get in three parents to accompany us, which got back some of those who stepped out. And thus we went on our much hyped and much awaited tour.


                             It was best ever series of days I ever had during my college life, and I am sure that all those who came on that excursion feel the same. Those were definitely the best days of my life. The best and most important part was that, it was when we actually started bonding with lots of others in our own class.  This is what a tour means to the lives of college students. So much fun and above that it brings everyone together. Too bad we all got closer only at the end of our second last sem and our last sem is almost over with regular classes being merely a month or two. This tour made us who we are today, united everyone in our class. We can never express how much the people who backed out of the tour due their silly reasons missed out. Too bad their ego let them down this time. They just missed the time of their lives. Those moments will be ever cherished in my heart. Never ever felt I would miss anything in my college life , but now have to rewrite that, will miss the last and final year the most. Will miss my friends and the awesome times spent with them. If this tour was one year before, the class would have been so much different. Wish we have one more tour before we are done with this last sem , unfortunately there aint much time left for that now. 

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Music : Present or Past Era ?

     

                  This picture was the main reason why I even thought about this topic. Is it really true that music has been degrading over the years rather than going from strength to strength. Now anyone goes around making some music videos and then just posts it on Youtube or Facebook and it spreads on and people get famous. Isn't it a bit too shocking if everyone does that. I have heard this Rebecca Black song only once till now and right now since I don't even remember how it sounded like, I am going to listen to it one more time. Seeing 15 million hits on youtube gives me the freaks. What is actually happening to all these people.

          First it was Justin Beiber, to tell the truth I heard "Baby" for the first time on a weird site and hearing the voice I felt it was a girl singing it, and since I wasn't so much aware of it I never realized it till I saw the music video. Of course there are lots of fans for him and he has got talent.

           The other main reason for me to think on this subject is that Dad doesn't like most of the English songs I listen to but he used to have awesome collections of english songs on the 70's , 80's . Disks of Pink Floyd , Deep Purple and much more. It seems that was the era of pure rock songs, what is rock now is a mere shadow of what rock used to be back then. maybe thats why the singers and bands of that era can never be compared to anyone of this generation. I may not be able to enjoy all of the songs of the past but there are some really awesome songs that I love so much like "Shoot to Thrill", "Sweet child 'o  Mine" , "Smoke on the water" ,and more. What happens now days in mostly music thats integrated with technology. Too much modulations unlike the raw and pure spirit of music in the previous era. Respect for them for what they were, what they still are , and what they will always be : Legends.

               So what would be your take on the previous era and the present era of musicians and bands. Come to think of it , the fear I have right now is seeing the next generation play instruments on their iPhones, iPads or Android devices. Now the world is in a smartphone after all and almost all future enhancements are smartphone oriented. Lets just wait and see what the future holds.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

My First Job

        Job, the one thing 6 out of 10 students aim for when after completing their graduation courses. When I used to hear job at the time I joined my Engineering course, I never had any hope of getting any job when I passed out of college. Infact I never wanted to do Engineering in the first place. Was always interested in animation and believed working in a field of interest will be most enjoyable. Well anyway now that I've joined it by force or by lack or resistance I had to pass out somehow. So kept studying the way I could or how i wanted to, and so time passed. 


                       Like in every engineering college we also had to do a main project in our last year or more precisely in the last semester. The design had to be submitted at the end of the seventh semester. Actually I was pretty clueless as to what we would do this time around cause we screwed up our mini project and the marks awarded to us were the lowest of all groups. We were both shocked and enraged, cause we did our project ourselves and we got so low marks and those who brought projects from outside and submitted got way better marks. So much for the "do it yourself" motto. Many groups remained unchanged while mine had a small change, one member got swapped, thats how you can put it. This time the idea was his. He came up with the idea of doing a project for iPhone, his ideas were sleek, we added a few minor add-ons of our own to it. Then we set out to find a place where we will get aid to put our ideas into form. We went to lots of places, but no luck. Finally we found a few places, they all claimed stuff. But due to financial reasons we chose the place where we had to pay the least, even that was quite a huge sum of money. It was in Technopark, over here this is our IT city, its the one place in Trivandrum where you feel you aint in Trivandrum, thats how the campus is. But the problem was that we couldn't put our ideas into action. They told if you want to do it you can , but they will take it as a client project, even without all the features. So we dropped the idea and chose one of their live projects, so it would be easier for them to help us with our project. But the shock that came in the coming weeks was when iOS 5 was released. Siri came with almost every feature we were planning to implement and even more advanced than we could imagine. We all felt like our idea was stolen, wel in any case they may have been working on it for some time.


                   So we started going there and started learning the basics of how to program in Xcode. Since we were in the last year and it was that time when companies start recruiting final year students. Since our college is in some kind of rural area, not many companies come there for campus recruitment. One by one friends in other colleges were getting placed. Then one fine day, our marketing manager told us that there are vacancies and they are looking for freshers and if we knew anyone, we should let them know about the vacancy in the company. My friend grabbed the hook, instead of the pass outs he told them that we are interested. And he never let go of the hook and finally convinced him to arrange an interview for us. Those two days were the funniest days, infact none would have given us a job in that condition. All of us forgot to take a resume , plus my dressing was too damn informal, sneakers included. The aptitude test went fine, though my program was pretty messed up. Then the interview, couldn't get funnier. It was the project manager, but we knew him as we were students there for some time. Couldn't answer most of the questions, yet we were selected, next was the HR interview. We were pretty scared about it but the scenario that awaited us was different. The MD just told some conditions that we should follow and right away gave us the job. We were so darn thrilled, the joy had no bounds. I got a job, my first job , and that too in Technopark. We students at that time in our seventh semester got ourselves a job and had to join on the 1st of December 2011. Thus now I have a job and I am still in my last semester of college. Feels pretty awesome to have a job when you pass out and more importantly a good long work experience by the time all results are out and cleared.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Scariest Day of Life

It was Onam again, Onam is a South Indian Festival, well specifically celebrated by Keralites all over the world. It is the one time of the year when dad takes a vacation by closing our shop for a few days usually 3 to 5 days, and then we all go visit some place outside our city. This year was no different, but we had no proper plan as to where we were going this time around. So we set out hoping to go to Bangalore after stopping by at Coimbatore. But for some reason the plan changed and we skipped going to Coimbatore. The usual road to Coimbatore was a real messed up one, you know what Indian roads are famous for, potholes all over the road . And since our car was a Skoda Octavia RS, which is low slung and if not driven carefully will hit underneath when driving over the potholes dad was hesitant to go that route. Someone had recently told him about the Express Highway claiming its a good road. So he decided to go that way. So we went down South to Nagercoil in Tamil Nadu where the Express Highway starts and joined the road. The road was like paradise, for me it was like the roads I've seen in movies, wide open roads with no speed limitations.
The road was almost empty and wide enough to unleash the beast within our tuned up machine. Our car was customized to churn out 300bhp at Pete's. Just that there never was any road good enough for the beast to unleash its power, now the playground was wide open. Dad stepped on it when the road was clear with long stretches visible. The roaring sound of the engine was a pure fantasy to listen to. At times he used to slow down the car and then jam on the gas and the car would pounce like a wild cat. He managed to top 170km/h and never tried to overdo. Anyway this was quite higher than the 140km/hr done with the 2000 model Honda City Vtec which we owned once. Later on I was given the wheel, this was the first time i was driving the car after the latest tune up. The car was super responsive, super quick to accelerate as well as to slow down. Dad told me to keep it around 60km/hr but well the road was too good for me to resist, so I topped 120km/hr and most of the time kept driving constantly at 100km/hr. 

There was this one incident when we were almost at Bangalore, somewhere just before Hosur, there was this Indica taxi , which I had overtaken once, but it went ahead when I let the speed fall. I was approaching a downhill slope, so i let go of the accelerator to save fuel. But unfortunately the car was gaining speed. We were on the left track, the Indica on the right track, and we were gaining on it. There was a truck in front of me, I was confused whether to jam the brakes or to overtake the Indica and go. But by then i reached too close to the truck and I decided to cut across and go, put the indicator and jammed the pedal , maybe it was too close to the Indica, but I went pulled ahead of it in no time. But then in some time that taxi driver overtook us swearing something. I was left confused if I did something wrong, so kept the speeds low then on.

After two days we were coming back, when this incident took place, it was breath taking. Dad was driving at a constant speed so as to not burn fuel away. There was a truck and a motorcycle up ahead. They were slower so dad was going to overtake them anyway. Just when he was pulling across the truck , the biker cut across with no signs. Our car running at 100km/hr. He was done for. Then dad saw the gap, which was left for making U-turns, he switched tracks, and jammed the brakes, we went past them and stopped facing oncoming traffic. Luckily there wasn't much traffic so we stopped. All of us shocked to the core. Best part was that the biker went by us staring at us,through the oncoming lane as if nothing ever happened. He didn't even realize that he was lucky to be alive. It was a real shocker and thank God nothing happened to anyone.

I just have one thing to say, people please follow traffic rules, they are for your own safety not for others or the Government. If you see someone who doesn't follow the rules, that doesn't give you the right to follow their lead to your own death. 


Saturday, December 10, 2011

Slavery behind veils

             




            It so happened that after a tiring night shift at work, I woke up at around 2pm, then had some food and played the rest of the game and then decided to check out what all happened on Facebook. Was just browsing through news feeds and saw a post by one of my school buds, saying "I dont abuse through statuses but this one deserves", I let it go and then after some time somehow it came in front of me again. As I had nothing great to do, thought of checking it out to see what it really was.

             







                            Read the content of this link : http://www.independent.co.uk/opinion/commentators/johann-hari/the-dark-side-of-dubai-1664368.html .


         Seriously this is a share, really need people to read this and realize the truth. It might take quite a bit of your time, do take your time to read it out. I never thought or expected slavery to exist in this 21st century world, and of all places in one of the richest countries in the world. And i really need to share this cause i know people with the same dreams, wishing and hoping their dreams come true if they go there :  Dubai of all places is hell hidden under the veil of luxury,fame,riches and fortune. I remember friends saying "I want to go to Dubai when I am older", and so on. What the world sees is a place where the richest people in the world live, even I wished i could be there as i used to be fascinated by the Exotics and Imports they showcased. Most of the worlds best supercars can be found there and that too lots of them. Money,power and a dictator what could be worse than living life as a forced slave with no hope. Plain daylight cheating supported by the Police who are supposed to be for the people: it seems they are there for the money, money and money. Even those who suffered once and are now enjoying a happy life dont seem to care for the suffering people,knowing how hard it is for them.Money is power,a ruler supported by greedy corrupt officials.




                           In this 21st century where robots are taking over humans in doing most of the work, where most human work can be substituted by a machine, who would ever want to live a life like that?
A life where you are denied your basic human rights, where your given less value than a pet, treated so miserably that you would just wish it rather ended than drag on like this.
Will the families of the people be knowing this bitter truth? The families living in the homeland maybe under the assumption that all is well and life is heaven over there. When you get a job abroad and if its Dubai, you and your family will be thrilled and those lowlife agents offering the poor people jobs promising huge salaries , giving dreams of a life of a prince. All people who go there may not suffer so , depends on the jobs they are in , but if its labour  then you are done for. This is the life that awaits you. I just have a question , what do people do with all this money?? You cant take it with you in your grave when you die anyway.


          

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Save Mullaperiyar

So the people have managed to put up some resistance , to put an ultimate act to bring the Government to their sense so that they act before its too late. This is for the people and by the people and of the people. 
If you can be a part of it please do, cause its for your state, your people. 

And the reason for Tamil Nadu not accepting the state of Mullaperiyar Dam seems to be this Kallanai Dam. It definitely is the oldest dam in the world but what will happen if it collapses? Whats the damage it can cause at maximum??  





And those people are comparing a dam which reserves no water with a dam that is supporting 10 TMC of water to one thats barely having any water. 

Besides if that Kallanai dam had so much water why would Tamil Nadu be depending on water from Mullaperiyar dam? Both Governments should come to terms, because it concerns both states, but more importantly Kerala. Half of Kerala will be washed away at this rate , the damage can only get worse. Please 
try to understand the seriousness of the problem rather than babbling nonsense. Its millions  of lives you are playing with. Share and spread awareness , people ought not be looking down upon this matter as some kind of political war between politicians or some kind of drama.

Read more....

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Mullaperiyar: An unknown story

Sharing the thoughts of what has been happening around noticed by some and ignored by many , the Mullaperiyar Dam issue :


For those idiots who still think
"Mullaperiyar" issue is a regional one,
For those idiots who wont see
anything even it is visible, For those
idiots who doesnt have any sentiments
even for themselves, For those
idiots,who are not meant to be a
human... ... What will happen to Kerala
and South India if Mullaperiyar Dam
breaks?
1) Under water sea cable for internet
connectivity connects India to rest of
the world , thats only in Cochin. If
Cochin Goes Down, South Indian IT
Hub will come to a stand still. All the
gateway CISCO routers , switches etc in
Kakkanad will float in Arabian Ocean. IP
packets from Bangalore, chennai etc
will not cross the ocea.. .n... ....
2) Cochin Refineries - Which refines
petroleum products and services most
of South India. If it is washed away,
TamilNadu, Karnataka and Andhra has
to find much more expensive options
for Petroleum Refineries.
3) Kerala will be in complete darkness
for ages, no TV, no Internet, no Mobile
towers, once the Idukki hydro electric
power plant is washed away, resulting
from Mullaperiyar collapse.
4) Kerala... will be divided into 2 lands,
impacting geography of India, and
washing away an area of vast bio
diversity, along with 30 lakh people.
Serving rest of the people with food
and other stuffs will be an extremely
tedious task.
5) Port City of Cochin, will not be in
world map anymore. Vallarpadam port
will be a history, all of South India has
to again depend on Colombo for
Mother ships , a very expensive option.
6) Tamil Nadu will not get water for
irrigation or drinking anymore, as
stored water in Mullaperiyar dam will
flow to the ocean, when the dam
collapses.
7) Along its course, the water current
will wash Idukki Dam, and many many
Industries , Factories, IT Parks,
Hospitals, Ports, Cochin City, temples,
mosques, churches etc etc to the
Arabian Ocean.
8) A disaster 180 times terrific than
Hiroshima. This is not exaggeration.
Spread this, my friends. Information is
power. Kerala as well as Tamil Nadu
are stakeholders in this issue.
More than us, its normal Tamil people
(excluding power-hung ry politicians)
who need such info. We need our
brothers and sisters across the border
to pressurize their own politicians to
consider this as a humanitarian crisis,
rather than an inter-stat e dispute.



To make matters worse , see what another friend had shared :



Just saw the news, where a tamil media activist was talking about the mullaperiar issue. From his talk, the attitude of the so called "educated class" of the tamilians was quite evident. He was quoting examples of some other dams which were more than 100 years old, and saying that these examples gave them the confidence that the mullaperiar dam would'nt burst!! Then he went on to say that the dam with the water height of 136, had a total water capacity of only 10 TMC and that the idukki dam could easily withstand that.He gave no concern to the lives of thousands living in the 30 Km area between mullaperiar and idukki, and was just saying that the keralites concern about the lives of 36 lakhs people was not justified!!!!!!!!!!In his view point the mullaperiar dam has been well maintained!!They hold onto this belief of theirs and dont even care about the reports given by the specialists in this field......

If this is the atitude taken by the people who should let the common man know the true facts behind this dam issue, how can we expect the common man to understand!!!In their view point, this might be just a trick of the keralites to stop giving their share of water... My dear tamil brothers and sisters, you can have all the water you want, we are asking only for our lives safety. Whether it be 1 or thousands or lakhs, its the life of a human beings that you are playing with. When you are taking this attitude, please remember that there are a few tamilians also living in the valley area of mullaperiar. If you are so confident about the status of mullaperiar dam, please have the courage to come and live in that area. Please have a consideration for the fear and concern for lives and livelihood of the keralites.





So what are they actually upto?? playing with the lives of millions of people. Are they waiting for a disaster to occur and then after it happens give money to the families of the deceased as consolation?? Can money ever bring back lives of the loved ones? Or is it that the politicians have no value because the people living there dont matter to them at all? What if their kids were living downstream? Talking wont help anymore, someone has to take action, one individual cant change anything nor can a hartal or strike. We need serious action, and someone who really can make a difference should step forward. Why is it that people are least bothered about this ? Just cause you have none you know over there doesnt mean that those people aint like you , even they have loved ones and families. And with all these rains and quakes happening around, the time to act to narrowing down. React before its too late. It could happen to you one day.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Why i warned you.


♥ i tried pushin u away,
bt u kept pulling me in,
i tried warning u again,
u still kept pullin me in

u swore on my life,
i chose to break the seal,
now that u know,
u dun wana know nymore

now u keep pushin me away,
i dun even wana resist,
i knew dis was to come,
cuz u r awl so d same ♥

Nothingness....


ion need naffinn,
lost in d dilemma,
d question keep poppin,
d answers unchoosable,
y do i care,
d question repeats,
wid no answer to say,
i still ponder,
wen i luk fer reasons,
i c nothin ,
wen i wish ta end it awll,
i c sumtyn ,
wish to break down,
wish to let it out,
but i jus cant ,
ders 2 much within,
to let go now,
d fear of xplodin,
keeps poppin up,
lukin fer d emptiness,
i see d green,
lukin fer sum hope,
i c awl balck ,
thers no rhyme,
ders no life,
nothin was meant to be,
d way it is now,
never meanta be

You, my friend


♥ my wish my way.
i knw u dun care ,
m i so bad,
i always felt so

but u all show it ,
u all prove it,
thanks for showin me,
how i am for yew

but i'm not u,
never will b,
i dont care wat u think,
coz u my friend anywy ♥

If things were..


♥ things cuda been different,
if i wanted it to be,
things cuda been better,
if only i wished

wishing is only one side,
acting is hell bent,
power ceases to exist,
the will hath faded

the thoughts seem dead,
the flow nullified,
the heart still beats,
the feelings benumbed ♥

Fading within


wen i say,
its a joke ,
wen i dun say,
its a secret

when u ask for answer,
i give it to yew,
but then u say,
shut up already

u expect me to share,
bt u dunt wana listen,
u keep complaining,
yet u dunt care

u blame people,
cause they dunt care,
as thou i care,
when even u dunt

ion mind if u do or not,
ion care if u giv a damn,
i knew my way,
i will find it again

i saw a glow in u,
that wanted to preserve,
what do i have in me,
that u walk away

am i the sin,
that u scared of,
am i the pain,
u wish to kill

Pain...


♥ whats pain..
I got no idea...
Whats pain...
I got no clue..

I see u low,
I see u cry,
I see u broken,
I see u shattered

Why do u cry,
Why cant u stop,
Is it really worth,
All ur time? ♥

Where will you go??


♥ when the dark of the low hits you ,
you r gone ,
you r lost,
just a question looms,
where will u go,
theres nowhere left to hide,
theres no one left to hold,
where will u go now,
u cant escape,
neither do u want to ,
u cant escape,
even if u wanted to ♥

Why care?


♥ y do i even care, 
y do i even fear ,
wats in it for me,
wat will happen to me nyway

y shud i even think,
y shud i even feel,
wats ma gain ,
other than d pain nyway

y shud i even try,
y shud i even cry,
wats gonna happen,
wats gonna change nyway ?? ♥

Reasons


♥ Reasons to cry....
Reasons to die...
Y do i care...
Y do i try...
Wen u dunt care..
Wen u dun mind...
Harder to try...
Harder to smile...
Wer do i go...
Wer do i hide..
Reasons to cry....
Reasons to die... ♥

No more pain


♥ be lost ,
be gone ,
from yer sight,
from your thoughts

be silent,
be unseen,
from everywhere,
from everything

no more shall u see,
no more shall u suffer,
this unwelcome pain,
the pain of me ♥

Changes


♥ the routines disrupted,
the actions forgotten,
the duties undone,
the memories faded

the faith lost,
the questions unanswered,
the problems unsolved,
the chores still undone

where am i lost,
what happened to me,
that times outa my hands,
that i cant keep it wid me ♥

Do i feel lost???


walkin through the side,
crossing through the tide,
lending a hand forward,
to let u move upward

we were standing there,
watchin the time change,
we were holding arms,
believing in ourselves

remembering all the joy and fun,
bringin tears rolling down,
rememberin all the sorrow and anger,
puttin up lil smiles on your face

why did u have to be the same,
when u promised u were different,
why did u have to change,
when u told u never will

the memories keep poppin up,
like photos in an album,
the hollow void u left,
will remain unfilled forever

Misfit


♥ wherever i am,
whatever i am ,
however i am ,
i will be the same

whatever i do,
however i do,
it will not be the same,
cause i will be the same

i aint like you,
i cant do like you,
cause all i know is that,
em just a misfit ♥

Look at yourself


♥ at times i look at yew n wonder , 
what have u not got dat u r like dis,
what more do u need ,
till yew are satisfied 

what r u gona get by awl dis,
wat ju think u gain by this,
the more u hurt people,
the more people will hurt you

no use crying,
no use trying,
the pain u caused,
will b awll yours ♥

Change in you


meanings change,
thoughts change,
surroundings change,
situations change

life changes,
do feelings as well??

what u said yesterday,
has become the past of today,
what u said u mean,
is now meaningless,
what u made me feel then,
u dont wanna no more

what did i do ,
for u to change like this,
did i make a mistake,
seein myself with u

not then ,
not now ,
but from then ,
till the end

i saw people ,
but they were just people,
but when i saw u,
i felt something different

i dint know it at first,
but soon realized,
i put myself in u,
for you to look after

i see my smiles in the mirror,
i see the memories,
i feel the joy,
i feel my heart

but not anymore,
where am i ,
where did it go,
i feel no more

was it a dream,
or a nightmare,
i cant let it go,
i cant feel u now

i still see you,
right in front of my eyes,
i still keep you,
right inside my heart

i keep begging,
don't let me go,
i keep crying,
please don't go

u keep taunting,
you let me go,
u keep shouting,
you need me not

life is so messed now,
dunno what to do,
living hurts me now,
when its without u 

The turn around....


♥ when existence hurts more than life,
why would u wanna live,
when ignorance is all u get,
n tears are all u can shed,
smile has becum an expression of d past,
happiness is now hi-s-tory

what do u need,
when u got love,
what do u seek,
when u got trust

why do u cry,
when u got love,
why do u hide,
when u got friends

the saying goes around,
what goes around,
comes back around,
way back around ♥

when it all began


when it awl began,
i was so scared,
when it awl began
i had nothing to say,
when it awl began,
i cant believe i dint fall ryt away,
when it awl began
i had no faith,
u kept walking away,
and in time,
u kept coming back
as time passed away,
i was getting the reality,
the feelings coming to me,
that u were d 1 for me
where did i go wrong,
that i lost your faith,
why am i so alone now,
that i feel so lost ryt now
the time spent together,
being cursed memories,
the happy times spent,
hurtin like a bullet in my head
why do u not understand,
that i need u so much,
why do u not feel that,
i need u as much as u need me
where did i go wrong,
that i lost my life,
i wanna know now,
how to save my life

Free fall.


♥ the question is lost ,
d answer unknown,
where was i,
wen awl of dese happend

the heart seeks solace,
the eyes some rest,
the tears got dried up,
waitin ta be wiped up

the mind seeks answers,
for questions profound,
sanity at d edge,
cruisin down a vertical drop ♥

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Just another Sunday evening.....

                      Sundays are how every week ends , the usual holiday for which everyone is waiting all week long.  Some people to choose to sleep all day long , while some do the chores. The same goes in every house. That day Ram woke up a little early compared to his usual wake up time. He got up and freshened up and went to his favorite spot in his room, in front of his PC. The area around it felt warm, he wondered , maybe the computer heated up running all night long. He sat there in front of the PC at the corner and started surfing. He though seemed to be lost in some kind of thought, completely unaware of the music playing through the stereo and of the surroundings, he even seemed not interested in surfing either. He was thinking of the day , Sunday ,  the end of the week , followed by another Monday. He also hated Monday mornings like anyone else.  
                                                    He was thinking what he would do that Sunday, what all he could do before he finally went to sleep. He chalked out lots of plans to rendezvous in the evening, building castles in the sky out of thin air. He was confident that he could do everything he wanted by day fall. And he seemed happy about it and anxious for dusk to break out on him and let him free. The day seemed sluggish for him as the Sun seemed quite stubborn not to go down so easily. He always preferred being alone when he does something so that none disturbs him while he is at it. Likewise he was waiting for nightfall, when everyone else would be gone for shopping and stuff. 


                                                    But he didn't know what was in store for him. As he was going for his regular evening bath. The bath before the prayers , his mom told him that she aint going today. But that dint bother him much, as he felt inside ,"Good , now i can sleep earlier" . He had his bath and went and sat in front of the TV and was scanning through the different music and movie channels hoping to find something nice. Then his dad came and sat there as well , after closing the shop for the day. Then his younger brother Shyam came dressed up  in attire and ready to go. Dad was relaxing and sipping on his hot tea slowly and watching TV , but little one was raring to go. He kept on chanting "Let's go , Let's go", and dad told him to wait for 5 minutes , and he pressed on a key on the TV remote which displayed the time. After sometime he pressed it again , and it was 5 minutes. He started shouting "Its 5 minutes already, Lets go now!!" . And Dad told "wait a bit more" , and he was like " I am not coming !!!". And he ran up to the other room and slammed the door , he then changed his clothes and came and sat in front of the net book. And the mom told Ram to go with his dad. Ram had no choice as none else is going , so he got ready in minute and was ready to go. All the plans he had made for the evening had crashed away like the Titanic which was never meant to sink , yet hit an iceberg and broke into pieces and sunk. 


               Life at times gets messed up , things wont always fall in place and happen as you want it to. Just don't loose faith in yourself and wish yourselves better luck next time and move on........

What i could have done.......

♥ i had so much to say ,
i wanted u to listen,
but u had more to say,
and i always listened

i wanted to see a smile,
but u gave a tear,
i wanted u walk the mile,
but u sat there crying

i had no words to say,
as nothin made any sense,
i had to watch u cry,
as i werent gud enough ♥

Monday, July 18, 2011

Is engineering becoming the basic qualification now???

"What have you studied?" comes the question and the answer comes out as "B.Tech" . This is now the situation everywhere , Engineering used to be a degree of great value a few years back, but now every third person you see is an engineer. What is the reason for this phenomenon ???

Parents are always the main reason for this and in some cases the children also want to be an engineer. But well now days the world has become so competitive that , if one parent sends his child to an engineering the next one will also try doing the same and that too in a better college if possible.

Engineers are found in heaps and most of them are working off the field in which they were supposed to be working in. A few years ago , getting into an engineering college was just a dream , but now anyone can get in into one , as a college can be found around every corner. They have become more common than schools , and most of them are now left with unfilled seats.

Why do we have so many engineering colleges?

These institutions have become more of a business than a place of study. The high donation fees that they squeeze out of parents to give a management seat to their wards are unimaginable and off the charts. The fees are also mind boggling , yet people are willing to spend so much for their children , if its for their sake or is it for the sake of their pride is unknown. Well , the population is increasing and a countless number of engineers are passing out each year with less that half getting placed in a proper company. Half of the rest go into other business and stuff , some of the rest in the remaining half end up as worthless lives.

So do you really need to do engineering for a brighter future is the question ?

Wish ..... u cared ....

♥ i wish to do much more,

i wish to take away ur pain,

i wish , i wish,

but u never care

i wish to see you smile ,

i wish to see u happy,

i wish , i wish ,

but you never care

i wish to be with you,

i wish to console you,

i wish , i wish,

but you never care

i wish to wipe your tears,

i wish to hug you tight,

i wish , i wish,

but you never care ♥

Cellular world.....

Who doesn't have a mobile phone now ? That's the popularity of mobile phones in the present day world

There used to be a time when even land phones were rare , then came the cordless phones which were handy as they dint have wires binding them or the speaker to sit there or stand there while talking and allowed a fair bit of distance to roam around within the range .

Then the cell phones came , it allowed users to carry around a phone with them wherever they went so that they could be contacted whenever anyone wanted and it was such a great invention , at first owning one of them was for the rich only, and there were only a few network providers.

Time progressed newer and improved versions came , the first phones use to have antennas and stuff , the newer ones had them inbuilt within the body in such a way that they dont project out. Initially the phones had functionality to store a few numbers and calling , then messaging facility came.

As time progressed the phones started getting more memory space to store in pictures and ringtone . Then soon camera phones and phones with music players were out. they were all fashionable at those times. Then infrared and bluetooth technologies came for transferring data from 1 phone to the other.

Look at the present generation phones , what do they lack ?? They perform like a mini computer in fact they are more handy and portable. Even the prices are near that of low end PC , technology is moving too fast , who knows what the future will be .....

Social networking ....is it that bad???

Social networking , the world at your fingertips you may say. Internet has been one invention or technology whichever you may call it , that made the world a much smaller place than it used to be. Through it you get to access anything you want , from anywhere in the world .

Social networking is just an advanced type of socializing , making friends from around the globe. The concept was such a hit that there are innumerable number of social networking sites on the internet right now. It all started with ideas like searching for people in other parts of the world with the help of the search engines available , of course Google being the number one in the business.

People of all sorts of age groups can be found on the various sites , usually the popular ones . MySpace used to be the number one site a while ago , now its been outdone by the likes of Orkut and Facebook , and even the micro blogging site twitter which is a huge hit. The teens use them to spend time with their friends , to make new friends from different parts of the world and for their own pleasure. Then some people use these sites to promote their products and companies and so on .And the older people use it just to spend some time relaxing playing on some applications or games with their unknown and known friends.

In a way , social networking is good , as it helps people keep in touch no matter how far apart they are , yet at times it tend to get addictive to the teens who enjoy spending time on the net for hours and hours.

The boy in me....

♥ my eyes are burning,

but em not sleeping,

my heart is bleeding,

my soul is crying

i showed u light,

i left u in dark,

i showed u care,

but dont care

i smiled at you,

just to see your smile,

but you dont smile back,

and my smile fades

I'm just a simple kid,

with not many wishes,

I'm just a boy,

who seeks freedom ♥

The road you use.....

Roads , are the most widely use path of transportation.

As the days are passing , the roads are getting more and more dangerous for the pedestrians as well as the ones driving the vehicles. As the advertisement of Ceat says , "The streets are filled with idiots" , we need to watch out for ourselves.

What has happened to road rules and safety measures , why are there so many accidents reported each day. So many causalities and so many deaths every day due to road accidents. Whose fault is it anyway , the people don't know the road rules or they aint bothered to follow them.Then what are rules and regulations made for ? To be broken??

While being on the roads you not only have to look after your own life , but also of the other people using the road as well. There are lots of places where there aint a proper footpath or proper means to cross a road , these tend to increase the risk of accidents for the pedestrians. As of such most of the pedestrians have no sense that they are on the road , they keep walking on the road even if there is a footpath and show complete negligence to it. They don't seem to think that the footpaths are made for them to walk safely.

And for the ones driving , the care less to indication or signalling while making turns which can be rather way too dangerous , especially for the vehicles following . Accidents occur frequently when a car or bike makes a sudden diversion into a side road with no hand signal or indicators. And then what do they do ? They blame the ones that hit them , asking "can't you see ??? " . Is this their way of escaping the conviction of the accident which they literally caused by their own ignorance.

Nowadays the trend is to switch to the oncoming traffic when they want to make a turn to side road on the right side. Plus whenever they enter into the main road from a branch road , they just pop out without even looking left or right for ant vehicles speeding through the lane. How can an accident be avoided in such cases ?? And people find it thrilling to cut through traffic signals as well. And the passengers in the buses , tend to jump out while the bus is slowing down , even if its in the middle of the road. And the motor cycle riders who always keep on pushing forward even if there is actually no space , will definitely try to get ahead of the bus even through the left side. Now both of the people are careless and yet another accident has occurred due to carelessness.

While on the road always watch out for others for your own safety.

Real or virtual is what you make of it.....

Love , either in real or virtual is real if the people involved in it care as much , otherwise its just a time pass .

And the people go about saying virtual relationships are unreal and will never work out , but if a person takes a relation like a time pass in virtual world , he or she is sure as hell going to take a real life commitment as a joke as well.

Love is love anyway and it has got no limits if your determination is that high. Love is unknown and cannot be completely explained , everyone has a different experience and a different view to it. And each of them are true in their own ways as they got different pieces of love. But lucky are the ones who are happy with what they got.

Adjustment is one important factor , if you cant then just leave it without even bothering to spoil someones life. It always the needs that stand out in this present generation world. The need for pleasure , the need for money. People choose any means necessary to reach their goals even if that means faking love to someone who may actually be loving them. Look how cruel the world can get now. Both boys and girls are the same , but since the population ratio favors the boys , boys hurt the girls in most of the cases. They leave the girls in utmost pain from which most of them hardly recover , but ever wondered why a boy turned out so ?

People turn bad with experiences and because of their bad company , they just believe their friends and use the others as tools for their own entertainment. Most of the boys who get hurt by a girl will be out to seek revenge , and in turn will go about hurting lots of girls and the girls will be left in pain. But there are girls also who do the same , and its because of such girls that such boys are formed and lots of girls are left in pain.

And talking of love , if you have faith in your love , you will succeed and if you have your doubts then the pieces will start falling apart and you will never be able to put them back the way they were before , its like a shattered glass , some pieces maybe able to put back but not everything , things will never be the same again. Faith is all that matters , but then due to various customs there will always be conflicts based on religion , caste etc from the family side. If you are not strong enough to face that pressure from your parents , you should never have loved in the first place . Love , to love always , else dont love , dont give someone dreams and shatter it in the end. After all , you will have to pay for what you do in this life itself.

Love is divine , it is eternal , a word so often misused , twisted and played with. The real meaning is lost from this world. Yet some cherish it so deeply. Love , be it through net or in person should be considered in equal stature , if you cant accept it leave it so.

Alternate Fuels......

The exhaustible fuels are almost exhausted , we need to switch over to the alternatives if we have to use the machines that run on fuel.

The fossil fuels are almost over , soon there wont be anymore oil avalilable . The elders taught us not to use up all of the natural and non renewable resources. But well who cares , we always go forward with the easy and shortest paths to our destination regardless of the damage we cause.

But now people have started realising that they cant depend on the traditional fuels anymore and are experimenting with the other resources available , especially on the renewable ones. Electricity has become the first choice alternative for powering cars and bikes now days . Solar powered cars are used aswell , but they are less practical as they need solar energy to run , so can only run during day time when the sun is shining brightly.

And electric power is on the rise only and imporvements are under way , so till they are completely usable for long distances , hybrids are available , which use more than one fuel at a time so that the fuels can be swirched over when necessary. Plus the alternate fuels are safer to use , more eco freindly as the cause low emissions or no emissions at all keep the environment cleaner , and they are more economical .

The more souces we have , the better , as all the these renewable souces are dependant on something or the other like wind , sunlight or hydel energy . When one is at a low , they alternatives must be available .

Alternate fuels are the future of powering the machines , they are not only cheaper , but also more efficient and eco friendly.